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[11 May 2005|02:52pm]
New journal...


Comment on the journal for adding. I'll add you if you're already on my friends list.

From Bikki [09 May 2005|10:00pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Tell me honestly in a comment what you think of me, and then you shall post this in your own LJ and I am obligated to answer it.

[09 May 2005|09:59pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Home from Scotland... with Scotty here!! Woo!!


[27 Apr 2005|06:07pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Erm, well haven't updated in a while. Nowt much happened really.

Off to Scotland tomorrow, to see Scotty again yay. Going for 10 days! And then he's coming down here for 10 days! Yay! 20 days with him :D

That's it really.


3 Score... / Goal?

Icons [22 Apr 2005|02:58pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Anyone like my new signature??

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Vetdesigner from The Darkness forum made it for me :D

Oh.. I got a few icons I found on google, you may wanna use them...

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WHY! [22 Apr 2005|10:53am]
[ mood | sad ]

WHY! Why do I feel like this? I can't stop crying, been crying since last night, and I just can't stop. I really need Scotty right now, I need him so much. I feel so sick, I miss him so much. I miss talking to him, he hasn't been online for a while, but when he is, I'm not. This is killing me. I really need these 9 days to hurry up.

I hate feeling like this!!!



New Icon & Layout [21 Apr 2005|01:51pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Yup, check it out peeps!

New Icon - mmm Billie Joe lol
New Layout - Thierry Henry - he is a superb player!


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[21 Apr 2005|11:48am]
[ mood | bored ]

At college... bored out of my mind... yes, bored.

Tutor phoned me up last night.. and MADE me turn up.

God sooo bored.



[19 Apr 2005|09:24pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well.. my last day at Eurest cafe is 26th April; Next Tuesday. Well I do need a change in job! Been there for 3 years now, so I've decided to change jobs.

I start my new job on 18th May, well that's my induction. I officially start on Sunday 22nd May. So that'll be good. On the 18th I gotta watch these boring videos, and then I'm on till for a bit, to learn the till once again!

I'm going to see Scotty again on the 2nd May so that's good! :D I'm seeing him for 2 weeks; 2nd May - 16th May :D Woohoo!



[18 Apr 2005|09:08am]
[ mood | tired ]

Nowt much happened 'ere! Just been chillin' out, well trying! Spoke to Scotty most of the time.



Lol... [16 Apr 2005|06:39pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I made a thread on TD forum on Thursday night...

Engagement Announcement (TD Forum)

And Scotty made one on the CPC Forum on Friday afternoon...

Engagement Announcement (CPC Forum)

I've also chosen ma ring :D

Ma Engagement Ring!

I'm so happy! I'm engaged the guy I love :D :D :D


3 Score... / Goal?

[14 Apr 2005|07:40pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Me and Scotty are engaged....

Well... I'm still waiting for a ring lol. But yeah we're engaged :D


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[14 Apr 2005|12:01pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Ok, I'm feeling a bit better from yesterday...

I just wanna thank bikz, musclemuseum</span>, captainjen</span>, __ehawkdarkling for giving me some good advice, thanks guys...



4 Score... / Goal?

OK... Depression Rant.. [13 Apr 2005|11:28am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm going to write what I feel, I don't care what anyone thinks, including all my workmates, I don't fucking care anymore. You all probably laugh cuz I'm fucked up, yes fucked up. It's not like anyone fucking cares about me.

I don't know what to do... Ok, you all may know I'm ill.. this is because I'm making myself ill. Yes, all the stress/depression is making me ill, and I should really calm myself down but I can't. There's one thing on my mind which is really torturing me. It's killing me.

I miss my baby Jessica. You won't understand, Jessica is my one and only baby. She was the world to me and Scotty, but she's gone... My Jessica, all gone. Me and Scotty still feel as if she's still here with us, but our hearts are now empty.

Last night, I layed in bed thinking to myself. I saw Jessica. I was holding her close, she was crying. Scotty was sat next to me, holding me. I wish this was true, but it's all gone. I want my little baby Jess back! Me and Scotty would have made good parents to her, oh god I miss her so much. What a happy little family we would have made.

Another thing on my mind is marriage... I really want to marry Scotty, but I'm scared. I'm scared and confused about everything. I don't know what to do, I think I'm scared of making big commitments. He keeps asking me to marry him, and I say yes. But deep down I'm scared. I don't know.

I'm completely fucked up, I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared of losing Scotty, I'm scared of marriage and being a mum. Why do I feel like this? I love Scotty with all my heart and soul, and I don't want to lose him or even hurt him. I really need him right now. I need his soft touch, holding me close, telling me everything's okay. I keep thinking of the week I was with him, laying next to him, running my fingers down his face. I never wanted that moment to end.. but it did. I want to go back, and be with him forever.

God help me please.

You all can comment if you want... I doubt anyone can help me.


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[11 Apr 2005|05:07pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Well, well, well, haven't updated in a while. Been ill (as usual). Haven't been up to much really. Got a promotion at work, so now I'll be working on the shop floor. Gotta give in my notice on Tuesday to the cafe.

Talking to Scott at the moment. Nothing to do really. Tried to do my coursework, only did a little bit though. Ah well.

TDR Forum's down, so I'm browsing mine... Boring lol


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[08 Apr 2005|11:50am]
[ mood | Tired & Sh*t ]

Taken from schitzophonic05 and </span>lisa_loves_adam

</span> ____What is your favorite_______

1. Gum: Wrigleys Extra
2. Restaurant: Don't have one
3. Drink: Tea or Coke
4. Season: Summer
5. Type of weather: Sunny
6. Emotion: Happiness or Hyperness
7. Thing to do on a half day: Go on MSN
8. Late-night activity: Probably MSN
9. Sport: Football
10. City: Southampton
11. Store: MVC

_______When was the last time you_______

12. Cried: Last night
13. Played a sport: Can't remember
14. Laughed: Weeks ago
15. Hugged someone: When I left Scotland :(
16. Kissed someone: When I left Scotland :(
17. Felt depressed: Today
18. Felt overworked: Dunno
19. Faked sick: Dunno
20. Lied: Dunno

_______What was the last_______

21. Word you said: Sh*t
22. Thing you ate: Cereal
23. Song you listened to: Daft Punk - Robot Rock
24. Thing you drank: Milk.
25. Place you went to: Brighton
26. Movie you saw: Hitch
27. Movie you rented: Dunno

_______Who was the last person you_______

28. Hugged: Scott
29. Cried over: Scott
30. Kissed: Scott
31. Danced with: No one
32. Shared a secret with: Scott
33. Had a sleepover with: Can't remember
34. Called Scott
35. Went to a movie with: Adam
36. Saw: Parents
37. Were angry with: Parents
38. Couldn’t take your eyes off: Scott
39. Obsessed over: Scott

_______Have you ever_______

40. Danced in the rain: Yea
41. Kissed someone: Yea
43. Drank alcohol: Yea.
44. Partied 'til the sun came up: Nope
45. Had a movie marathon: No
46. Gone too far on a dare: Probs
47. Spun until you were immensely dizzy: Yup
48. Taken a survey quite like this before: Yea

_______My life_______

49. Name: Louise
50. Gender: Female
51. Birthday: 16th July
52. Relationship status: Taken by Scott
53. Nationality: English
54. Occupation: Student.


55. I’m feeling: Sh*t
56. I’m listening to: Daft Punk - Robot Rock
57. I’m doing: Nothing
58. I’m talking to: Gracie
59. I’m craving: Scott.
60. I’m thinking of: Scott
61. I’m hating: My Life


62. Love is: Great..
63. My first love: James
64. My current love: Scott
65. Love or lust: Love
66. Best love song: Bryan Adams - Everything I Do
67. Is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: Yeah
68. When love hurts: I die... Yeah
69. Is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Yeah

_______Opposite sex_______

70. Turn ons: Eyes, Sense of humour
71. Turn offs: Dunno
72. Do your parent's opinion on your girlfriend/boyfriend matter to you?: Yeah sometimes
73. What kind of hairstyle are you into?: Dunno
74. What is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you?: Send sweet texts (Hm, yeah I'm soppy)
75. Where do you go to meet new people?: Internet
76. Are you the type of person to "HOLLa" and ask for numbers?: No.

_______Picky picky _______

77. Dog or cat: Cat
78. Short or long hair: Long
79. Sunshine or rain: Sunshine
80. Hugs or kisses: Both.
81. Summer or winter: Summer
82. Written letters or e-mails: Both.
83. Playstation or Nintendo: Playstation
84. Car or motorcycle: None
85. House party or club: None
86. Sing or dance: Both
87. Crazy dance or slow dance: Crazy.


88. How are you today?: Sh*t
89. What trousers are you wearing right now?: Jeans.
90. What shirt are you wearing right now?: The Darkness
91. What does your hair look like at the moment?: A mess, haven't brushed it yet
92. What song are you listening to right now?: Daft Punk - Robot Rock
93. How is the weather right now? Windy
94. Who was last person I talked to on the phone?: Scott
95. Last dream I can remember?: Being with Scott... and something else upsetting


[06 Apr 2005|10:40pm]
[ mood | Sore throat! ]

Went to Brighton to meet Adam today. Left here at 9:20, got to Clapham Junction at 10:40am. Then got the 11:12am train to Brighton. Met Adam at the station.

We went round Brighton for a bit, was freezing! We went to the cinema and bought our tickets to see "Hitch". Then we walked round for a bit, went to a guitar shop, and I saw the most awesome guitar ever! I wanted to buy it. Adam had a little play on it, he's good.

Then we went to the shopping mall, and something to eat. Then went to McDonalds so I could get a milkshake - always do! heh! Walked back to the cinema, and sat there for a while. Then went to get our popcorn, like you do at cinemas, then went to see "Hitch". Was sooo funny!

Then we walked round looking for the train station, got there at 6pm, then he got the 6:07pm back to Burgess Hill, and I got the 6:17pm to Clapham Junction, which got there at 7:10pm, then had to wait for the 7:27pm train to Honiton. It was a packed train, I had to stand up from Clapham to Andover, then I sat on the floor near the doors til Salisbury lol!

Got a really bad throat, kept losing my voice throughout the day. Was funny. Everytime I phoned Scott my voice went, and was kinda croaky.



[05 Apr 2005|07:45pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Hmm haven't done much this week. Stayed at home most of it.

Going to Brighton to meet Adam tomorrow. Gunna be cool. Going to the cinema, dunno what we're seeing though lol.

Scott's coming down next Thursday I think. Only if my parents sort things out! Hope they do, I miss Scott :(

Anyway I'm off.


2 Score... / Goal?

[01 Apr 2005|06:21pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Didn't do much today.

Spoke to my parents about Scotty staying here, and they don't mind! OMG! They're gunna sort it out tonight so hopefully I'll have an answer soon! :D


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[31 Mar 2005|10:29pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Well I is backsies from Scotland. Had a great time with Scotty, missing him like hell now. Got home over an hour ago. I'm absolutely shattered from travelling there and back within a week.

Thursday night;
Got to Elgin at 8pm, Scotty picked me up at 9pm. Laid on the sofa for a while, then met his family; his parents and his sister Lauren.

Stayed in all day, didn't do much. Had a laugh, some kid outside shouted; "Come back here you little fat immigrant!" Was funny.

Stayed in. Met Darren (Rollie) at 4pm outside the Skerry, went to buy some alcohol. Then went to the bunker, but then went back to Scotty's cuz it was cold. Stayed in, Andrew came over too. Drank for a while.

Went to Inverness to go day shopping. Was fun. Went round the shops, looking at games. Scotty was happy, he found Doom 3 for £12.99.

Stayed in as usual

Stayed in again. Went out for a meal with the family.

Went to Elgin for a bit, then stayed in.

That was my week with Scotty.


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